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Moving On! Moving Out. Moving Up?

23 February 2011

Moving on!

Finally those words are true.

It has been 35 months since the tailspin of my life began, and what a wild ride it has been.

On this rollercoaster I have grieved, moved home, left jobs, broken up, grieved some more, been in a fatal car accident, lost friends, gained new ones, wandered aimlessly with a backpack, raised a 5 year old, learned yoga, had braces and found God.

I have cried my life away sinking in depression, said goodbye, started a book club, lived the unemployed life of a housewife, packed up lives of those who no longer exist. I have fought fearlessly, and with faith, through anger, guilt, and resentment.

But most of all I have learned forgiveness and the importance of letting go.

The last 3 years has been to get over it you must go through it! And now that I have, I can finally close the chapter and move on.

It feels good to know I have processed my heartaches, compartmentalized, and safely packed it all away in a place called Acceptance.

Moving out.

The time has come again to pack up and go (thanks to a little encouragement from my fellow wandering bears).

We have decided, as unsettled youth, to hit the streets of LA and immerse ourselves in the urban chaos of Downtown. I am dually excited and nervous.

I am ready for a new start, and to stir up some trouble. I have been in suburbia too long!

It is going to be hard leaving my little Gabs behind. I know it is time for us to go our separate ways, so that we can finally become sisters.

Moving Up?

It’s time to manifest greatness.

I am getting back on the career train and hopefully my path will be unveiled soon. I’m confidant and faithful that I will find my way through these tough economic times into a place where I can serve with purpose.

Also, I have started my blog. This is huge for me as I attempt to establish my voice as a writer. Who knows the great American novel could be just around the corner.

And love? Well at least I am ready to give it a shot, but I’m not holding my breath.

Until then, the next chapter is yet to be written. So stay posted, and keep sending me your thoughts.

Editor’s Notes: Thank you again! You are all part of the reason I am still standing and I am extremely blessed to have you in my life.

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10 Comments leave one →
  1. erin permalink
    23 February 2011 2:51 pm

    I’m so happy for you! When you move, I’ll have to show you this nifty bookstore in LA that I’m in love with. Can’t wait to see what’s in store for you, friend.

  2. Saamsonite permalink
    23 February 2011 3:37 pm

    This brought tears to my eyes… which was a little unsettling at work, but I don’t care- I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!

  3. 23 February 2011 3:59 pm

    I have anxiously anticapted the day when these words would be true. The time has come. We made it friend.

  4. bearman permalink
    23 February 2011 7:34 pm

    Lexi-
    You have been and continue to be a huge inspiration in my life, you are strong and compasionate. You are also the person that isnt afraid to tell me what I have to do with my life. talking to you is like talking to my own heart and I owe you so much. I have recently gone back to school to remake my life as well and love your words that crash through my soul constantly, “Bear, Get out of here and do something with your life, you have much to give”,
    I love you darlin and good luck with the next part of your adventure, I know you will rock it out.
    Bearman

    • 23 February 2011 8:02 pm

      Oh Ben you have no idea how much joy it brings me to hear these words. You are truely one of a kind! You go big brother bear. I can’t wait to see where and how your journey unfolds. Some of us are meant to do great things, with a little faith and a lot of love the world is ours to conquer.

      One Love, LEXY

  5. Declan O' Flaherty permalink
    24 February 2011 4:01 am

    Hey,

    This is truly an inspiring post.

    Personal Development is a way of life for me. I have a passion for working on myself and have started a blog to share the knowledge i have attained over the years, but my biggest concern is that most people are caught up in their limiting beliefs and as a result they may never realize what they are truly capable of until they just let go and trust in their abilities.

    I believe that you can be an inspiration to the people i talk about and your story is one of true compassion, empathy and perseverance in the face of adversity.

    I wish you the very best in everything you encounter on your journey through life and i am honored to have encountered such a diligent and soul inspiring writer as your good self.

    Thank you very much.

    • 24 February 2011 1:48 pm

      Wow Declan! Thank you so much. You have moved my heart.

      You are absolutely right…I did not know what I was capable of until I let go and trust! Maybe the most important lesson I ever needed to learn.

      Please know that your blog has also encouraged me as I move toward accepting my path and living a life of gratitude.

      One Love, LEXY

  6. erica permalink
    24 February 2011 8:28 am

    LEX, as always you continue to be an inspiration to me. This next chapter will be brilliant, because you will make it that way.

    “What is the feeling when you’re driving away from people, and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? -it’s the too huge world vaulting us, and it’s good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.” – Kerouac

    Love ya chica 🙂

    • 24 February 2011 1:51 pm

      Erica, you are one of many, that have completely altered my journey. Thanks for the Kerouac I may just have to archive that line. I am also inspired as you move into your own new chapter. One Love lady!

  7. Momo permalink
    24 February 2011 3:43 pm

    Hey girl… I loved reading this, I am so appreciative of the time we have spent together and for the friendship we have built. You were there for me when times were sad and difficult and I am so glad that you have finally made a decision about what to do next. Although I am sad that I won’t see your face at the studio, I know this will be good for you and we will just have to make time to spend together!

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